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Archive for December, 2008
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Wednesday, December 31st, 2008PPP
Monday, December 29th, 2008sponsors to be…
Monday, December 29th, 2008Getting pregnant is not fashionable!
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I don’t care how many celebrities get pregnant, how many baby boutiques pop up, how cute babies are it is NOT FASHIONABLE.
Babies are not accessories like pets you can fit into your handbag. People are no concerned with your recent ‘baby-bump’. And if you have as much money as Katie Homes to spend on her child then obviously you are stuck in a love-less marriage. (Har-Har!)
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The recent hype that created a new market around pregnancy also left out a big reality kick. Babies cost a lot of money (duh). By adding a boutique aspect to the whole deal we can now rest assured there is are millions of women fawning over hense demi god celeb’s flouting their ‘hard earned’ cash. Yay for capitalism.
Considering The teenage birth rate in the United States is the highest in the developed world, (Source:OECD) one would think this whole ‘fashion’ that has been media generated would want to back right the hell off. But doesn’t.
The ‘Yummy Mommy’ look and ‘Mommy make-over’ gives no apologies to those who are single parents living under the poverty line.
- 27.7% of custodial single mothers and their children live in poverty
- 11.1% of custodial single fathers and their children live in poverty
References:
United States. Census Department. Custodial Mothers and Fathers and Their Child Support: 2005. By Timothy S. Grall. Census, 2007. 17 Mar. 2008 [http://www.census.gov/prod/2007pubs/p60-234.pdf].
In no soon enough time I would love Angelina Jolie to adopt me even at my age. I don’t care I said it. I don’t know a soul who would say no.
Yes Mom
Ok that brings up another issue. Since when did women look skinny when they were pregnant? Since celeb’s and media decided that anorexia was OK! Its not OK its a serious disease that causes families to suffer, the person mental illness and later problems in life even death. That being said skinny moms should not equate glamor. If anything ever showed the sickness of Hollywood’s self loathing & emptiness, that does.
give me a break
Wanting to go home ..
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Sometimes I want to home. Not to my family right now, but to that place I remember feeling complete. I realize now in my older age, it is a sensation not a place.
Its the place I used to be when I was six. Hanging a self made kite with a huge smiley face out my window. It was made from sticks and could never pick up wind but I would reel it down over my window ledge, gleefully and hopeful as a 6 year old child could be. Wish-filled and happy even to see it dangle past the neighbors window.
People in the yard outside my apartment used to look at me sweetly as a child that had no knowledge of physics but the optimism of a child.
I was content. In joy as life is.
Today I asked my best friend if she ever wished to go home. Before I could go on I was cut off by a confused yet determined “No”.
I realized the pursuit for knowledge and religion are some how tied to this sensation. When I re-entered university I felt slightly at home because I was about to discover a whole new world whether it liked me or not) And philosophy strummed at this vein of what I could call ’sentiment’.
Its a need that is motivated by more at heart.
I get the same content feeling when I stare out my window or get a the chance to take in the splendor of the stars without city lights. This is home. That sense of wonder.
Although the stars make me feel more alone and whole at the same time
Somewhat like the description I found of the Hebrew word shin
‘The secret of the shin is “the flame [Divine Revelation] bound to the coal [Divine Essence].” A simmering coal actually possesses an invisible flame within it, which emerges and ascends from the surface of the coal when the coal is blown upon. The three levels: coal, inner flame, and outer flame, correspond to the secret of chash-mal-mal, as will be explained in the next letter, the tav.
One of the meanings of the word shin in Hebrew is shinui, “change.” The coal symbolizes changeless essence, the secret of the verse: “I am God, I have not changed,” meaning that relative to God’s Essence absolutely no change has occurred from before Creation to after Creation. The inner flame is the paradoxical latent presence of the power of change within the changeless. The outer flame of the shin is continuously in a state of motion and change.’(http://www.inner.org/HEBLETER/SHIN.HTM)’
What I take from this basic explanation is that shin is somewhat the sensation of wholeness all the while knowing change is permanent.
I may not completely understand the symbolism of the shin word but I have taken from it what I see is true.
My next pressing question was do all these feelings lead to one thing?
All these pursuits of knowledge, needs for satisfaction are they under one box i.e work, friends, spirituality? Or is that part of the spice of life- variety that keeps me coming back yet with the same drive to answer a question un-said?Ever searching, wanting to expand my self (in metaphoric way) while at once feeling one, as if nothing has truly changed.
Sometimes I wish it were simple I wish I could go ‘home’ and I would have no need for such foolishness on my mind.
The Paranormal
Saturday, December 27th, 2008<!– A:link { so-language: zxx } –>The Paranormal
Paranormal what does it conjure for you? Ghosts, UFOs, angels, God like experiences, black cats? From my experience a large amount of people believe in things that are not scientifically confirmed.
I had an odd feeling that more people are inclined to believe in the unseen as late but upon internet cruising it seems skeptic.com says ‘More than half of all Americans believe we can heal each other by psychic or spiritual means. About one-third believe in telepathy and about one-fourth believe in clairvoyance ‘. Then goes on to state only 20% believe in after life communication.
I can be a skeptic. I have had hypnosis for quitting smoking that failed. My deep subconscious couldn’t shake the treat. Only drug treatments from doctors worked.
That I put down to how ’suggestible’ I am. For the test go here.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BcYnVPbX_6I
In any case I am open to discussion of these things as I am a ‘believer’. I saw a UFO when was 9 with my friend at the time. Since then I have always been fascinated with things that are not so mainstream. Perhaps even before then.
Scientists now are saying they have found a ‘God module’ that when stimulated forms hallucinations and God-like experiences. Duhhhh!-If we didn’t have a place in our brain for this to happen where would it be coming from? The fish in the air. Then it becomes the chicken or the egg argument of which came first.
Personally I am more interested in what it can do for us. Being one diagnosed as bi-polar I have long thought that epileptic people and saints had much to do with each other. Not in that ‘mad/artisan way, but in the area of the brain that controlled god like experiences, energy levels and emotion. I always assumed it was the pituitary gland which is more of a primary hormone center. I was wrong. Obviously I am no scientist I just take guesses and see if the pieces fit.
And to me this is all under the unseen paranormal because when you don’t totally know what a disease is sprung from or why it is still undefined. The difference between that and UFOs and back cats and such is that they have more of a stigma associated to them. When we look into the unseen it is scary and sometimes it easier to shrug it off than delve too deep.
However now we can see what science will do with this if mental illness can be cured by further knowledge of the ”God Module’ Until then we can have our experiences and leave it at that.
Couch gravity and relativity
Monday, December 22nd, 2008I was denied adoption by the SPCA because the cat ‘might bite my child’. First of all it wouldn’t be allowed to bite my child. Second of all it has no claws!
In any case I have been strolling other sites because my family isn’t even allowed to adopt the cat.
I won’t get into how ignorant that is but I have to share this picture I found I laughed so hard I cried a bit.
What more can I say?
This cat runs the show. I am more scared of ‘petey’ cat smothering my child than the other scardy cat ‘Sugar Plum’ that would hide under a bed.
You see, I met the cat I was going to adopt it was friendly to me. It stood up, asked for a pet and sat back down. I can see that if I threw my baby in its face it might not like that and might bite it. But as the Foser mother said it would if anything run under a bed when scared.
Unless it is a kitty Jekyll and Hyde I don’t now what these ladies are worried about.
Peter Kimber
Sunday, December 21st, 2008Today I talked with Peter Kimber an intelligent, witty man who has been through hell and back-literally.
His stories of Mexican jail are vivid and ultimately heart. As so little it seems can be done about the amount of corruption that goes on.
I feel quite fortunate to have met a person that has survived this ordeal not for the token friendship but for the genuine sense of humanity that radiates from him. There is no other way to put it.
Here is one of the first articles on him that he showed me. He said he borrowed he clothes he was wearing in it.It was the first thing he was given in Canada after losing everything but his life and family there.
I won’t repeat some of the stories he told me,however, in the self published book he has he has written some down.
The new me
Friday, December 19th, 2008
Are you frown'n at me??
For the next 6 months I will NOT ALLOW my face to make any surprised or upset expressions. I am dead serious. I am going to look as expressionless as Bush on 911.
I can see some furrows making a home in my face. And being pregnant doesn’t allow for the Botox. Very depressing.
I must not externally express,
I must not externally express.
This is my new mantra. I will be as dead faced as a chief in war or a Hugh Grant love making.
I will give the lines NO MORE reason to gain entry on the event horizon of my forehead DAMN THEM. Oh my god I just frowned. Just wait you little bastards, I will be pushing my newly born baby out and screaming now PUT THE IN FILLER !!BOTOX< ME BI@#H LIPO !TUCK ME NOW NOW NOW!!!!!!!
Not enough can be said about the advances in modern medicine. Bobbitt (Bobbitt case) got his little winkey sown back on and we can look like anything we want as long as our bone structure allows for it. And it doesn’t, hell you can break it. Now that is a small miracle. When I grew up and grown ups said you can be anything you want I never knew it could mean literally!
Not to be too sarcastic, I don’t think cosmetic surgery or body modification is a bad thing. Its just like religion. It just shouldn’t be taken too seriously or to the extreme or you will end up in heaven with the virgins. As the saying goes ‘as long as you aren’t hurting yourself or anybody else’ why not?
Females have only recently had so much CONTROL over their own body. Mine Gods what are we to do? Are men running around sex crazed in the streets?
Perhaps a little, but as far as I have heard thanks to another small miracle called birth control, education and freedom of choice . (I really cant stress enough how much I like that one) Western civilization has managed to not out breed the east. If anything we now are wanting to interbreed but that is another journey.
Waiting for my pussy
Friday, December 19th, 2008I cant wait. I get a whole new life form in my apartment. A little entity.
Its my one joy inside of my home. Granted there is the usual sociability’s, but since my boyfriend is away its been lonely.Very lonely.
There are spaces in time that are supposed to be filled with warm cuddles and interaction. This a pussy can do!
I am adopting her from the SPCA she is 9 years old, polydactyl cat with green wizedom filled eyes. She has a little bit of a troubled past but with some encoragement will open up to love.
Sugar Plum
She comes home this weekend. Being 15 weeks pregnant I have an automatic cat box. Which bags it up automatically.